8/25

Cheers to graduation,

Cheers to a promotion,

Cheers to a new start,

Cheers to growing up.

Now will you please,

Grow up with me?

I feel so much older than I really am. I hate the fact that the kids I have loved and hung out with for almost four years, still act like kids. They all make such a big deal about my age and the fact that I am the youngest but why is it that I act the oldest? I act the most mature, I have a plan for the next few years. Yes, it is a work in progress but I have an idea of something that is realistic, unlike the group of kids. I truly don't get it and honestly it makes me sad. You all make me sad, because I feel like I could never tell any of you this, because truth is you wouldn't understand.

Change.

Things are changing constantly,

Before my eyes.

I can't make time stop,

To completely admire it all.

But from what I see,

Things are both

Wonderful,

And awful.

I guess it all depends,

On how one views it all.

With an optimistic view,

One sees how wonderful change,

Truly is.

But from a pessimistic view,

It is the opposite.

But what if the change is bad?

So bad it could alter ones life,

Not for the better,

But for the worse.

What if you are the only one that sees it?

Do you say anything?

Or do you look back in a few years,

And regret not saying anything.

7/17

Why are you afraid?

Am I that scary?

I didn't lie to you,

When I said I liked you.

But you didn't give me,

The time of day.

And let's just say,

My patience is short.

So now I am done,

With all your bullshit,

Your games,

And you.

I hope you are happy,

Because all I wanted to know,

Was what made you happy.

I don't believe in anything anymore

People suck and I can't even be happy in my own house. I am not wanted here. I am not wanted anywhere. I am nothing special. I am just a mess. I wish I could just runaway. Leave this terribly awful place.

Where do I go from here?

So everyone did the 2010 how they felt stuff, blah blah blah. Well honestly I fucking hated 2010. And I am so fucking happy it is over.

But my questions is where do I go from it?

What can possibly make 2011 better?

Parties? Maybe.

New Friends? Possibly.

Love? Hahahahahaha! What a joke.

So what then? Who the hell knows?

I mean I guess I just have to see what happens this year.