obviously i am still completely in love with this song. i kinda wish i could scream my heart out, but i am not sure anyone would really care or listen. it would be like that tree that falls in the forest but did it really make a noise? or whatever i am not making much sense, i haven't lately. my thoughts all jumbled into a big mess. i could blame it on stress but eh what is the point in blaming, because it is still going to be there later so might as well just find some courage and stick up to it. hmmmm maybe i should take my own advice...well i am going to soon, i promised that i would. well i hope i can find enough courage to do this, and so much more.
i wish they would leave, they don't love us, they don't even like us. they are just selfish, trying to make their guilty consensuses better. well you want to know what leave us the fuck alone we have enough shit to deal with, you aren't making anything better. you just sit there and watch with your judgmental eyes. feeding upon the hate, slowly letting your time drop to zero so you can blow up in our faces. moping around the house all day waiting for our arrival home, it use to be a sanctuary, a paradise from all the drama, but now it isn't, i have lost my sanctuary. it doesn't exist anymore. and you, i wasn't about to forget about you. wanting so much from us, yes we aren't perfect. but we sure as hell try. and it isn't good enough so you kill us with your hateful words. crush our hopes and dreams. when will you learn, you can't control us, you are the reason we fight, we strive for your attention. well i have given up on all of that, i have swallowed my pride for the time being, expected all the hate that rolls off your tongue, and i don't strive for your attention, that is the last thing i want right now.
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