A pounding headache and a million reasons to scream.

Days like these really question who I am, who my true friends are, do I really have any?

I really have been pondering this one for a while now. It seems like the people that I use to be close to pushed me away because of what I was doing, some of my choices. So I opened myself to a new group of people, they accepted me with open arms, but then they looked the other way and never looked back. So I don't know where I stand anymore. I would like to say I have one true friend that I know everything about, but I don't. I know people, people know me and that's it. Nothing more than that.

It also seems like the few people I have been hanging with, all they want to do is drink, smoke, and have sex. Personally I want to talk to people, get to know them better. I don't really want to do that stuff anymore. For reasons I have told very few people. But I just want to end that part of my life. But it seems like I can't. Hell I am suppose to go party this weekend, well I don't really want to. I don't feel that great about anything anymore. So with that said, I am out.