is it wrong...

to want to escape your house, your family, all because you are selfish. you don't want to stay because they remind you of death, crushed dreams, dead hope. what do you do? when you can't. no one will give you an escape. how low would you sink? go into the deepest corners to find an escape, go to extremes, go places you never thought you would. lose a little bit of your soul either way, from staying or trying to find an escape. is it even worth it? it it wrong?